Worrying about my English competence

I’m not sure if I should figure that my English is getting worse. The meeting was not satisfying, from my point of view, it was miserable. When I spoke I had the impression I’m stumbling through the language with a lot of grammatical mistakes and not simple ones. The feedback of my partners didn’t express whether they understood me or not. I think I was too arrogant and not sufficiently prepared.

My conversation partners today were Arthur, a Ukrainian – I met him for the second time -, spoke confidently and fluently though I had problems to catch all his phrases, the other partner Grace, a woman from South-Corea, spoke also rather fluently but due to a reverberant acoustic I guessed the meaning more than understood her.

Today I found  a teacher – of course I’m YouTube – who uses ChatGPT for English learning. He supplies a lot of interesting prompts to support English self-training. In the next days I’ll test it.

My walk today was not very long (2,7 km, 4,8 km/h) but rather unproblematic, stressless, maybe it’ll be getting better, haha.

I learned recently never say: “my English is bad, I can not understand natural speakers etc.” All these ones are forbidden and what I’m doing now?